When and as I see myself wanting to control my partner through anger and resentment, I stop and breath, and I reasses myself and my emotions, my intent, and also ask why I am getting angry, why am I wanting to control my partner through arguments, through throwing my phone. Within this I see and realize that I am only projecting my emotions and insecurities towards my partner, and that I am only getting angry out of noticing within my owne go that I am not able to control her.
I commit myself to always reflect my anger towards myself, and to always utilize my emotions and my own ego before ever deciding to start an argument with her, or acting out in anger or resentment.
When and as I see myself blaming my partner for something she says that I find inconvenient, or for her having issues or problems, I stop and breath, and I reflect back to the reason I'm blaming her for her expressions, her problems, and always focus on myself and my own emotions and my own reactions from what she says, and how I react to her having problems, whether they have anything to do with me or not.
I see and realize that I cannot blame anyone, including my partner, for my own reactions, for my own emotions that include them, because it is my own self created manifestation.
I commit myself to not bottle up these emotions of anger or resentment any further when I experience them, and to alway breath and state self forgiveness and self corrective statements, and to stabilize myself before continuing my relationship with my partner.
When and as I see myself becoming fearful of my own thoughts, emotions, reactions, etc., I stop and breath, and I do not continue with fear or continue with feeding and allowing these emotions of anger and resentment to run wild. Within this I see and realize that I can always bring myself to stability regardless of how unstable I might find myself. Therefor I commit myself to always breath, write, and do physical activity to bring myself to stability, and to always utilize instability.
When and as I see myself holding onto tension with my partner, I stop and breath, and I let go of everything I've ever tried holding onto that is unhealthy, controlling, unnecessary, egotistical.
I see and realize that I must initially give myself space from my partner when things get too out of hand, and to stabilize my emotions alone before ever trying to communicate with my partner. Thus within this, I commit myself to continue writing myself out on these emotions in relationship to my partner, until I am stable and can be around her again without any movement in the mind.
