Day 14 - I feel sick to be existing

I fear being in my body. I can't even write out something without thinking I'm going to be humiliated for it and judged for it. Therefor I fear writing write now. I fear being self sufficient because I fear myself and my body. I looks at my body as disguising and resent it. I can't write without creating so,e form of having to be comforted by likes or approve ment.