Day 6 - feeding into sex energy

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to masturbate, and therefor feed into the mind to gain areousal.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to be dishonest within sex, and exploit it for the benefit of superior imagery.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to procrastinate self responsibility through the escapism of masturbation. I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to express myself under the enslave,ent of sex. Therefor I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to define who I am under the foundation of sex.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to let sex effect my relationships wi others (females) and thus create an inevitable motive to gain sex within these relations, and decieve and manipulate for the benefit of fulfilling a sex drive.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to let self interest get I the way of my self responsibilities, and expression. Therefor I forgive myself that I've accpted and allowed myself to procrastinate self honesty, and allow myself to be enslaved by the imagery of sex.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to involve sex n most aspects of my life.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to let sex define what my body is, thus from the imagery that sex provides, I become self aware of the imagery of my body, and therefor I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to exploit my body for the benefit of my mind.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to involve sex with my self responsibilities, or enjoyments - for instance: when I play guitar in front of girls, therefor try to exploit myself as a superior image as a "sexy guitar player" to try to win the girls watching me. You know the saying "chicks dig guitar players".

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to limit myself under sex, and being aware that sex causes my abuse and limitations in the first place, but still participating index, and telling myself "well it's ok, I'll get away with it because ill write self forgiveness". Therefor I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to involve sex within my writing.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to therefor continue to make my process of self forgiveness as something universally intriguing/ a self interest starting point.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed yield to create my past writings as sex; " oh sweet now I don't have that problem anymore, and I'm 'getting better', oh and I can't wait u till I gain acknowledgment for it"

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to therefor not realize how abusive sex is, and how self interested it is, and thus how much sex has been an Influence within almost everything I participate in in my life - I clean the house only when I have the drive, and when I do I thus get the orgasm after cleaning, and I go around and admire everything and try to get this great fulfillment, therefor only cleaning when it makes me feel good, instead of just cleaning to clean. Or when I decide to workout and exercise, I only do it for the benefit to gain a 'sexy body' and then when I realize that my body is working allot and taking its timely process, I quite, or potentialy quite because its taking too long for the imagery of myself to give my the orgasm.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to therefor act on responsibility only when having the drive, or drive of sex. Therefor I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself for causing abuse to my body from being inactive simply because I didn't have the sex drive to take care of it.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to define food as sex. Thus eating compulsively, or eating an unhealthy diet due to the starting point of wanting to gain fulfillment from the taste.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to be enslaved to the sensory of 'good' food, and therefor eating foods that trigger a superior imagery and taste, that causes me to eat more unhealthy than I know I should.

I'm committed to not be enslaved to masturbation, or pornography.

I am committed to stop, and breath, and self apply when I have these immediate sensations of wanting to masturbate.

I'm committed to be self honest at the starting points of my decisions, and why I. Exercising, playing music, etc.

I'm committed to take self responsibility for what's best for myself as life, under the co-existence of my immediate environment.

I'm committed to write self forgiveness from the starting point of self support and supporting others, and to be self honest with myself when sharing blogs, and my reactions to responses.

I'm committed to investigate myself within the spectrum of sex, and set myself free through self honesty, and self application, to find out what I relate to myself as sex, why I relate these things to me as sex, and how I accepted and allowed my mind to accumulate these things to relate to myself so intensely.

I'm committed to not open up vulnerable points to escalate my mind win sex, and breath when presented to imagery or any external presentations that activate this sensory, and find myself within that moment as life, and not made a product of my environment/sex.